Saturday, November 14, 2015

By God for God

It is so easy for us to forget our sole purpose in being created. We were made by God for God. He created each of us unique. Because God created me different and set apart from anyone else...only I can love Him in the special way He created me and He aches deeply for intimacy with me…the way I can only love Him. What we don’t realize is how much God longs to hear from us and give back to him our exclusive way to love Him. He yearns with expectant hope to hear our voice call his name and praise Him. 

We ourselves as believers in Jesus Christ should desire deeply this intimacy with the Father because of His great love for us. You don’t seem to have this desire you say…then ask God to help you thirst for this alone time with him. He loves to give you the desires of your heart.

“Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the 

desires of your heart.”

Psalm 37:4

As Paul stated in Galatians 2:20

I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”

Again, as believers, we need to “give up” our selves for Him because of His great love for us. Quiet time alone with God brings us oneness with God in Christ, oneness with fellow believers, and oneness with God’s creation. As we begin to diligently apply this quiet reflection to our lives on a daily basis, we experience the presence of God in ALL things! We learn to abandon all our desires…agendas…thoughts so we might have immediate contact with God through Jesus Christ. We give God back what He created us to be…by God for God!

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

A Touch of Death

Discouragement has found it’s home upon my shoulders and whispers in my ear once again. I keep swatting at him as I would a fly that buzzes around my head, but to no avail his nagging still tugs at my shirttails. Why has he come, I ask myself as I sit in the stillness of the night unable to sleep. 

The answer does not arrive quickly as the clock ticked at the midnight hour. So I do the only thing I know which is to just “be” with Jesus. I talked to Him and expressed my feelings as if He sat beside me…everything. As tears appeared and rolled down my cheeks, silence returned to my lips. 

I sat for a very long time alone in the dark and then the question came to me. Why have you put your expectations on man once again? This answer I know was not from my annoying friend discouragement, but from the precious Holy Spirit…my counselor sent to me from my Heavenly Father. I realized at that moment I had once again put my  hope in the work and actions of men. How foolish of me to think my life’s satisfaction could come from a sinful source. 

I asked Jesus for forgiveness for I had touched death in my thoughts as I put my trust in man and not in God alone. I remembered how much Jesus loved me as I reflected on when His blood ran red at the cross of Calvary. For a length of time, I just praised Him relentlessly and professed my trust in Him alone. My eyes closed as sleep came and a peaceful heart was found. I awoke this early morning and my friend discouragement had disappeared and joyful praise unto His name remained.

“Trust in the Lord with ALL thine
heart and lean not into thine own 
understanding, but in ALL thy ways
acknowledge Him and He will make thy
paths straight.”

~Proverbs 3:5-6

Wednesday, October 7, 2015

Mighty to Save

I sit here this early morning in awe of a God who loves me. He is such an amazing Father. He breaths life into me each and every day no matter what my circumstance. I know some might look at my life and say I have everything and it also would be easy for others to think I am in want of nothing. This statement is completely true. But it is not because of the material things I have been blessed with, rather I have everything and want for nothing because He…my best friend…Jesus….gave His life for me and in Him I put my trust.

However, there are things I long for…I continue to wait for…with confidence of not “if” it will happen, but trust and stand on God’s promises that it will be. Some may wonder what this something could possibly be that I so long for within my life. It is actually not something I desire for myself, but for my husband, whom I love dearly with ALL of my heart. It is for him to know Jesus and His great love. Tears flood my eyes as the salted drops run down my fair skinned cheeks. My husband is a good man, but I know his goodness will not get him into heaven. And so I pray…everyday…that his heart would change and he would say yes to Jesus and believe in Him. 

I am sure I am not the only one who longs for a loved one to be saved by Christ’s amazing grace. So today, I not only pray for my husband, but for ALL the unsaved souls near and far. I could not imagine life without Jesus. I desire others to know of His great love. I ask you today if you have read this piece, to pray for one soul…maybe someone you know…to come to know and believe in The Lord Jesus Christ. If you would so kindly just put the first name of the person you are praying for in the comments of this Facebook post or this blog post, be assured I will also pray for that person as well today. We have a mighty God and nothing is impossible with Him.

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

His Touch of Love

The raindrops fall from the limbs as the tree dries in the refreshing breeze. The wind upon my face whispers softly my Savior's sweet touch of love. The morning dove coos in the distance and the birds chatter and add to the beauty of another day given by the great I Am. I sit quietly on the old wicker rocker and take in all the melody and harmony of God's beautiful creation...and it is good!

Friday, March 20, 2015

Separation Unto the Holy Spirit

The constant daily act of surrender to God is very difficult to do. We often hear... "be in the world, but not of the world". A very challenging task as a child of God. When we come to this crossroad of life, we have to choose a side...self or God. This sometimes daunting decision is made easier for those who rest solely on the Holy spirit to guide and protect. But if we have not a separation unto the Holy Spirit, our choice can become very skewed. We are disoriented...dizzy...and the lines of God's will and our own self desires over lap often leading us to heart failure. The blood with which Christ shed for us no longer pumps well through us as a child of God because we have stood to long gazing in vein at our self in the mirror.
Dear Heavenly Father, please help me to continually replace my self image with that of Jesus on the cross remembering the cost He paid to set me free. I do not want to live in the bondage of my own selfish desires. Help me to wait upon God and realize this is my highest and most important work. Amen.

"Search me O God, and know my heart;

 test me and know my anxious thoughts.

if there is any offensive way in me, and

 LEAD ME in thy way everlasting."

Psalm 139:23-24

Thursday, October 30, 2014

Let God be God

How many times must I walk this path of shattered glass upon my footsteps? The bleeding from today has not yet stopped and I know a bandage to cover the wound will not heal it. The tears have not come like they have in the past. Anger has replaced them. The pain has never left…it always remains…even after years of brokenness.
I can’t wait until morning. I know somewhere in the Bible it states that joy always comes in the morning. This is why I am anxious for the dawn of a new day to come. I want joy and not the defeat I feel at the moment. Maybe defeat is not the right word…it should be sorrow. My heart is sad. My “off” switch is turned “on”. ..I am numb.
I don’t know what to do.
 I can’t fix a person.
Only God can.
My pleas have fallen on deaf ears and a mouth which confesses it grieves the Holy Spirit. What then is left for me to do? Walk away I guess and let God be God.

Psalm 91
1 Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”
3 Surely he will save you
from the fowler’s snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.
9 If you say, “The Lord is my refuge,”
and you make the Most High your dwelling,
10 no harm will overtake you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread on the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
14 “Because he loves me,” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.”

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

My Dry Bones Thirst

I am at His mercy once again as tears flood my eyes and roll down my cheeks. The situation is out of my hands. I have no control over it. The questions can’t even be answered until morning breaks. As for now, the moon shines brightly behind me thru the picture window. I wait for dawn to come.

I sit here in the quietness of the night as the crickets chirp beyond the screen in the window amidst the hot humid air which has only slightly cooled since the sun set hours before. The only other sound is the clicking of the keyboard as my fingers reach for the right keys. How much more must one endure?
I beg and reason with my heavenly Father and repeat over and over,
“I don’t understand Lord.”
I recount my years of faithfulness unto Him and know He has absolutely been more faithful to me. He has never…not ever…left me nor forsaken me. But yet, much like the Israelites wondering for 40 years, I feel like I am in the dessert roaming in circles wondering what will come next and does the promise land really exist. My soul needs awakened and my dry bones thirst. When will the living water come to me?
The wind has picked up outside. A thunder growls quietly in the distance. The storm in my heart seems endless and those I long to love me most always fail me. I will sit her quietly…for how long…I do not know…probably until my eyes can no longer stay opened and I will pray. It is all I know to do. I will praise Him even in the midst of this storm. I will hold on to His great and precious promises. He is an ever present help in times of trouble. Great is the Lord and greatly to be praised. I love you God!

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

My All in All

I have been going through a bit of a growth spurt lately, but I am weary of the waiting. Now, I don't mean a physical growth spurt, but a spiritual one. God is up to something and what bothers me most is I don't know the plan. I know ALL He does is for my good even though the "good" is hard to see at the present moment. I have been reminded very often of Romans 8:28 a little more than I would like these past couple of months. Our family situation is very much out of our control, but yet I am thankful for God's provisions and everlasting love.

He continues to remind me of the power of prayer through brothers and sisters in Christ who have lifted us up in unceasing prayer. I am grateful for those God chaser souls whose faith keeps me strong in the wake of my doubting. So thankful for you all!

He continues to remind me of His faithfulness in His provisions for my family. We have had shelter over our heads and food on our table. We have each other and good health to boot! We are not in dire straights, because looking back I can see how he blessed us to be sustained at this time. God is good ALL the time and ALL the time God is good!

Yes...indeed...God is working and I pray for His peace to abound more each day in my life that I might experience a deeper faith. He is preparing...and while He is preparing I will praise Him all the day long through tears and even those times I am angry because of my selfishness in my desire to "know" the plan. I know through my praise He will reveal His plan and I will be ready to say, 

"Here I am Lord, send me!"

Monday, July 14, 2014

The Art of Fellowship

I heard a pastor on television state yesterday that becoming Christ like was the reason we become Christians.  It might have not been his exact words, but that is how I remember it. Although I agree we are to become more Christ like once we make Him Lord of our life, I do not believe it is the main reason God wants us to become one of His children.

Some how...somewhere...we lost the art of fellowship. We have become so use to having our noses and eyes focused on some electronic device we have forgotten about the real person who sits beside us. Also, we have detached ourselves from the One who desires to hear our voice the most...Jesus. I believe the Father wants most and endlessly longs for...the sound of our voice...the voice He gave conversation with Him. God created us first and foremost for fellowship with Him. Maybe I am wrong in my thinking (it would not be the first time), but God made each one of us different, unique, and special...and only I can give back to Him what He created me to be.

When we put fellowship with Christ first in prayer, Bible reading, and solitude, the Christ likeness in our lives begins to happen. We can not BE more Christ like if we don't KNOW Christ and His ways.

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Sovereign Over All

I am tired and weary of the battle and the armor with which I adorn myself with each day is heavy on my body. I am slow to rise and so easily fall. The battle that rages within the confines of the grey matter of my mind seems difficult to overcome. The walls press in and my arms shake as I try with all my might to keep them from crushing me.

I am now awake in the midnight hour as sleep eludes this restless soul. So many questions remain unanswered as different scenarios spin out of control like race cars in the Indy 500. I am afraid of the fiery crash that may ensue and engulf me in flames. I take a deep slow breath and exhale even slower many times in a row.

I lay back and rest my head on the pillow and look out the skylight above me. The dark blue of the night sky was lit with one single solitary star within in the border of the window pane. I focused on the small light and imagined the heavens above. I felt God looking down on me, but asked in a whisper under my breath, “Do I really matter in the vastness of your creation?” No answered arrived to my listening ears.

I gently pulled headphones over my hair, snuggled them against my ears, and began to hear the music play. I closed my eyes to envision my Savior holding my hand. The Gentle Healer’s arms embracing me in a great big hug. A peaceful moment I had longed for most of the evening.

In my own power, I cannot make something happen or wish it into existence. It is only in His power that anything is possible. I can try with all my might to “do” everything I know to make something happen, but it is not going to happen unless He allows. God is sovereign over all. I must relent and yield to His awesome power in my weakness and know I can let go of the walls for they will not crush me for His strength is sufficient.